Well, the last 24 hours haven’t exactly been wonderful. Last night, P told me that due to someone calling in sick I would have to work on NHS instead of SDOC. I had a really bad panic attack and ended up not being able to go in at all. Poor P ended up doing my shift until 7am.
I was due for another SDOC overnight shift tonight, but I’ve been told I’m not allowed to do it. Although my bosses seem to be sympathetic to my anxiety, it still looks like I’ve been suspended indefinitely. I’m heartbroken, as I do enjoy working on SDOC.
My boss arranged for me to see one of the out-of-hours doctors this afternoon. I’m not really sure why, as I’ve done all that before, but along I went. The doctor was really nice and suggested I get some counselling and perhaps change my medication.
I’d decided to quit smoking for new year, lol, that was a stupid mistake. I had to have a ciggy on the way home because talking about how I felt upset me a bit. P was due in for work at 7pm, so we decided to grab a McDonalds as there was no time to cook. We had to nip home for his wallet – I wish I’d never bothered suggesting the idea. As we drove back down our street, we didn’t see a car who’s door was wide open. Or rather, I did see it, but it was too late. I yelled “door!”, which was probably the most ridiculous thing I could have said. Our wing mirror smashed straight into it.
P braked and got out to surmise the damage. Our wing mirror was totally smashed, but their door was bent and wouldn’t close. There were two people getting out of the car and one of them was holding a baby. The woman was screaming about her child, and the guy was just plain furious.
P parked up and went to exchange insurance details. I didn’t get out, but I could hear him apologising. Apparantly the woman had calmed down a bit, but the guy was still fuming. It sees they had managed to get their door closed though.
After all this, we headed off to the cash machine. Insufficient funds. After all that, we couldn’t have the damn McDonalds anyway.
Moral of the story: Don’t get born.
Happy new year folks.