Bloggy time! I thought of so much I wanted to blog last night, but I can never remember half of it when I get up.
I know I was feeling quite depressed and I wanted to vent out my feelings. Perhaps I’ll stick a notepad beside the bed and scribble things down as they come to me.
I didn’t work yesterday, someone else was covering the shift. So far, it doesn’t look like I’ll be working Monday either as I haven’t heard anything from D. I’m kind of dreading Monday. I can feel the horror of letting P go to work, but I must not give in. He has Wednesday morning off to go to the hospital, so at least I’ll see more of him then. I’m just terrified that my old anxiety problems will resurface. Just when I seemed to be recovering, this shit happens.
We still don’t have a phone – can’t afford to pay the bill. To continue the line of bad luck, both our calor gas heaters ran out of gas so we had to scrape the money to buy one. I can’t live in a house with absolutely no heating, it makes me even more depressed. I also have to pay D for a strippers night she’s arranging by Tuesday. Tomorrow, P will have to go to the bank and pay the mortgage as well. I can’t understand why everything has landed on us at once.
One of my new years resolutions was to quit smoking. Somebody up there doesn’t want me to. I can’t give up when I’m feeling so bloody stressed.
I’m sorry for the miserable nature of my blogs lately. I really don’t want all my visitors to leave feeling depressed. Perhaps I’ll just make up some good news. Like this:
Phillip and I won the lottery yesterday. We’re now millionaires! I’m afraid I won’t be blogging much now because I’ll be too busy buying my new mansion and taking exotic holidays!
Oh, how I wish! We don’t even play the lottery!